~~R.Q.O.T.D.~~

Watch your thoughts, they become words.

Watch your words, they become actions.

Watch your actions, they become habits.

Watch your habits, they become character.

Watch your character, it becomes your destiny.

~~Lao-Tze ~~

Hello World

It has been a while since I last posted on my blog. Things for me have been like a roller coaster the last couple of months. You know full of ups, downs, loops, and unsuspecting turns. Some days I didn't think I would make through the day, my mind was and still at time was just scattered here and there just not sure of anything. It's amazing how we become so comfy with life that when something minor happens it throws everything in the air like birds taking flight after being startled. In all that I have been through I have learned some valuable lessons along the way: love those who are here now, enjoy each day as if it were last, let it be known how you truly feels, and the list goes on and on.. Sometimes, I ask myself why didn't you realize all this before now..........

~~To My Angels~~

As always keeping my girls at heart, one never knows when that time may come. Death will come knocking at all our doors eventually. This is my way of leaving my girls with a little something more to hold on to. I guess you could say my last words, so to speak......


Now I lay me down to sleep, I pray the Lord my soul to keep. If I die before I wake please tell my girls that I will always love them and whole them in heart for-ever. Life goes on and nothing should change; go about your daily doings as if I were there. I will be in heaven looking over you girls until we reunite someday. Don’t cry for me for we have had so many happy days and memories together and those are the ones I want you to hold the tightest. No one knows how many days they have left on this earth so don’t take them for granted, live your life for a longer and better life.


Yes, my angels I know it seems as though all is lost but it really isn't. It is your time, your time to shine like the bright star in the northern sky. Mama will be that light breeze that brushes across your face or that sweet whisper in your ear when you feel lost, confused, or just feeling a little down. I may not be here in the flesh but I will always be there in spirit. I love you my sweet angels!!

~~Where Did the Passion GO?~~

In the beginning we were inseparable. No one could have prepared me for the resentment I now hold in my heart. At first things were as if I were living a fairy tale come true and nothing or no one could have wakened me from that dream. You were my knight in shining armor that came into my life at just the right time….!




You swept me off my feet during what I thought was the one of the worst and darkest times in my life. With the guidance of the man above you helped me to move past all that pain, anger, and confusion. You became my best friend, my comforter, and the one person I knew I could always count on. Where did all that go…….?



I know every relationship has its ups and downs but here lately we have had more downs than is allowed in a single football game. Things with us have become such a double standard to the point that I am so confused. It is okay for you to come, go, and do as you please but when it is my turn then it is a problem. What is the problem…..?



We have had the same argument since for what seems like an eternity now and everything gets laid out on the table but nothing is ever really fixed. We continue to go through the motions of you promising that you will change and do better. How long does it last, not long enough? It last long enough for the sticky on back of the band-aid to wear off. How do we move forward……?



I am starting to wonder if there is a future for us at all. I have heard many say that having a piece of man is better than having no man at all. I have tried to take what I have and work with it but you have to understand that you cannot teach an old dog new tricks. I am starting to see signs as we continue down this highway that seems ever ending. Wait the sign says crossroad up ahead, which way do we go. If we take the highway to the left it seems to hold uncertainty. Will things remain the same or change for the worst? The highway to the right seems to hold change for the better and hold a promising future for us. What do we do; Which way do we go……?



I don’t know, you tell me what does it hold………?

~Farewell~

I cannot believe this is the end! We have all come a long way and yet still have a long way to go. This will be my last post to this bog, I have created another on another website if you want to continue following me. I plan to continue following those of you who keep blogging beyond this class. Good Luck and maybe we will meet up in another class or maybe our paths will cross in the reall life.

My new blog is on wordpress.com: athoughtofmine

Looking foward to seeing you all there...

**IDK**

I just don’t know anymore. My cup is so full right and running over right now I don’t know which to turn. Between work, school, kids, and everything else I have lost all focus and it is starting to show in my assignments. I have tried to get refocused but I have found that easier said than done. Once you get off balance it is hard to ever find you’re footing again and my assignments are so suffering from this. Hopefully, I can end this term with at least a “B,” I hope.

~Happy Mothers Day~

Once a year everyone comes together to celebrate a day that has been set aside for mothers. Why should mothers day only come once a year, should it not be mothers day everyday? Shouldn't appreciation be shown daily for mothers, I mean we are there when you need us and when we are not needed. Whether you are celebrating mothers day with your mother or you a mother cherish each day as if it is the last, give thanks  everyday not just once a year.

~ANOTHER BEAUTIFUL DAY~

We have had some beautiful weather here in Arkansas the last couple days. I don't know about you all but I have had one busy weekend of writing a draft for this class and doing an outline for another. It is a wonder everything has not ran together; info from one class to another.
You know there is a wealth of information out there on stem cell research, everyone has there own opinion on the subject. Some agree that embryonic stem cell research is the it thing and others like myself totally disagree. If they can come up with a way that would be not destroy embryos then I am all for it but if not please please find an alternative. One method has proven note worthy and that is umbilical cord blood. Maybe if someone can come up with way for mothers to donate their cord blood after birth that is if they don't keep for themselves then maybe with the cord blood they can manipulate the stem cells from there to mimic that of embryonic stem cells. I have read some research that cord blood has been tested for stem cells. Studies show that cord blood does show some stem cells present but studies have also shown that these cells can be manipulated. Can I say very Promising!!!

~He is Always There~

FOOTPRINTS

One night a man had a dream. He dreamed

he was walking along the beach with the LORD.

Across the sky flashed scenes from his life.

For each scene he noticed two sets of

footprints in the sand: one belonging

to him, and the other to the LORD.

When the last scene of his life flashed before him,

he looked back at the footprints in the sand.

He noticed that many times along the path of

his life there was only one set of footprints.

He also noticed that it happened at the very

lowest and saddest times in his life.

This really bothered him and he

questioned the LORD about it:

"LORD, you said that once I decided to follow

you, you'd walk with me all the way.

But I have noticed that during the most

troublesome times in my life,

there is only one set of footprints.

I don't understand why when

I needed you most you would leave me."




The LORD replied:



"My son, my precious child,


I love you and I would never leave you.


During your times of trial and suffering,


when you see only one set of footprints,


it was then that I carried you."

Author Unknown

There has been so many times that I have had to remind myself of the one person whom is always in my corner.

~So Tired~

When does a mother ever get a break from it all? Everyday all day, all I hear is mommy will you, mommy can you, mommy can I, mommy mommy mommy, does it ever stop. OMG, I never thought I would get tired of hearing that word “mommy” but I think I have heard one time to many today. I hate days like this when it’s raining and the kids can’t go out and play. I thought today would be a perfect day for me to stay in and catch up on homework and work on my two essay that I have due in a couple weeks but no, I got very little done today. Well maybe tomorrow will be a better day, let’s hope anyway…..

~~Just Dont Know Anymore~~

Maybe someone out there can relate or maybe someone has some suggestions. I have been having issues with my pre-teen daughter and I just don’t know what to do anymore. I have tried the spankings, punishment (taking the cell phone, iPod, and all them other little gadgets) I have even threatened to send her to live with her father. Nothing seems to be helping and she knows I will not send her to her fathers to live with her father but I think I’m going to have to call her bluff. I know when I was her age I probably went through the rebellion stage to but for some reason I don’t think I was that rebellious. I'm always asking what the problem is but she always says there isn't one but I know there has to be something that eating at her because she has changed so much over the last year or so. I miss my sweet lil' girl, I just don’t know what to do anymore.

~My Angels~

They are my reason for returning to school and getting a degree in medical assisting. They are my joy!

Mya & AzJia

As I Watch You Grow

© Kay Theese

Do you know how much you mean to me?

As you grow into what you will be.

You came from within, from just beneath my heart

it's there you'll always be though your own life will now start.

You're growing so fast it sends me awhirl,

With misty eyes I ask, Where's my little girl?

I know sometimes to you I seem harsh and so unfair,

But one day you will see, I taught you well because I care.

The next few years will so quickly fly,

With laughter and joy, mixed with a few tears to cry.

As you begin your growth to womanhood, this fact you must know,

You'll always be my source of pride, no matter where you go.

You must stand up tall and proud, within you feel no fear,

For all you dreams and goals, sit before you very near.

With god's love in your heart and the world by its tail,

You'll always be my winner, and victory will prevail.

For you this poem was written, with help from above,

To tell you in a rhythm of your Mother's heartfelt Love!

Source: As I Watch You Grow, Daughter Poems http://www.familyfriendpoems.com/family/poetry.asp?poem=1604#ixzz0kbyccSmj

~HAPPY BELATED EASTER~

Yeah, Yeah, I know I am little late with the wishes, better late than never. No, I did not make it to sun rise service, the family and I were completely wiped out from the events of the day before and none of us got off to bed until 1 or 2 in the morning. After rising late my girls and I went to my parents’ house up in the country and enjoyed the day with them. My fiancé` cooked a fabulous meal, oh heck any meal he cooks is fabulous all because I did not have to cook it. LOL! No, I do not like to cook, he spoiled me when we first got together and told me that he loved to cook and that has been his job since. Don't get it twisted I do cook from time to time, but when I have too! Anywho, I hope everyone had blessed day yesterday!

~Just a Quote Today~

I haven't felt well the last few days, my belly has been doing flips. Here's a quote to ponder on.

To find what you seek in the road of life, the best proverb of all is that which says: "Leave no stone unturned." ~~Edward Bulwer Lytton

~GOOD AFTERNOON~

Hello to everyone! It is a beautiful 66 degree day here in Conway, AR,and I am stuck in what I like to call the rubber in the back of the hospital. Where we are heard but not seen! (lmbo) I would much rather be some place any place other than here stuck in this little room. This room makes me feel like the crazy people they keep locked away up on the third floor. It kind of reminds me of this little quote:  ''Insane people are always sure that they are fine. It is the sane people who are willing to admit that they are crazy." ~Nora Ephron
"A question that sometimes drives me crazy: am I or are the others crazy?" ~Albert Einstein

~~~HAPPINESS~~~

I thought I would share this quote that a friend posted on her FB page.

'We tend to forget that happiness doesn't come as a result of getting what we don't have, but rather a recognition and appreciation of what we do have.' ~F.Keonig

~WOWzers~

I think I may like this blogging thing. I can vent, say what I am feeling at the moment, or just whatever I want to say.  WOOOOHOOOO!!   ~LMBO~

~UNAPPRECIATED~

Don't get me wrong I love my job, but sometimes I just want to walk out and say forget this crap. I mean I show up for work everyday on time whether I want to be here or not, but my co-workers come and go as they please and nothing is ever said about it. There have been times when I actually needed to be off because of a sick child or something important and I couldn't be off because the second person that is supposed to be here doesn't show. It's ashame when I want to take a vacation day I have to put in for weeks or months in advance so they will have time to find someone to cover my shift. I know you are probably wondering why nothing has been done about the situation but you see one thing I have learned since I have been here is mind your own business. The more you complain about something the less likely something will be done about it. I just look at it as just something temporary until I finish school then I'm outta here

Over Already

GEEZ!!!! The weekend are just never long enough. I wish it was manidatory that everyone had 3-day weekends, but I guess if everyone did then we all would wishing for 4-day weekends. I can never get everything I want to get done in one weekend, even when I take a vacation day in order to have a three day weekend I still can never finish. I guess I need some time management or something. Anywho it's 2200 (10:00 pm for those dont know) and it's my bed time so nite nite!

BOREDOM

The time is 1348 and as usual I am here at work about to fall out my chair of bordom. Around this time of day the phones stop ringing my guess is they are all somewhere cramming their mouths full of food. I myself usual take lunch around 11am so that I can watch Y&R and by 1330 I am so bored or sleepy that I cannot cantain myself. As you can probably tell I have a pretty laid back job and oh did I mention that my boss is the bomb. He is one of the best, there isn't many out there that would allow me to do my homework while I am on their clock. Okay, I have to go now the phones are starting to ring again so that means they are all full and will be cranky as all get out the rest of the afternoon. Toodles